The meaning of love...

The beating of my broken heart now chained and locked away.
I hear much louder, through the night than words we never say.
As hollow kisses turn to dust and fall against my skin,
I pray that I might find the strength to fall in love again.
Abandoned silence. Stripped away, discarded on the floor.
In the dirt, I bury hope that love leaves unlocked doors.
I am held, though never cherished, yet to be made whole.
My tears can wipe themselves away, but I must save my soul.
Bare feet, run, take me home where I am mother’s child,
And toward the pale rose sunset for a pretty little while.
If broken wings may carry me home, carry dreams, and carry me to sleep,
Take me far away from love and tell me what it means.

If You Can...

If you can look past what it's worth, look past the disasters
And dream about their smiles and laughter's
If you can trust and confess that there are no regrets
You see the sad shadow disappear and you will not forget
If you can not let go of everything and have that scar in your broken heart
There is no end, its endless, something will fall apart
If you can give memories and engrave the faces in your head
And forgive everything that was said

If you can forever continue to see always to replace the emptiness
Or lost amongst all the addictions and chaos, it is waiting somewhere,
You will dare to forever care
If you can doubt not knowing the truth but are willing to meet them
And as time passes, the lies you believed will fade
Just waiting for happiness and love, your feelings will change
If you can think about what you've learned, hate and death
Or think about your wishes and dreams while taking your last breath

If you can watch and hear the evil, bad and good
But can't seem to remember where it once stood
And never had the chance to walk the ground
But in another way, things for you are better than most deep down
If you can believe in faith and your life and see
The beginning of you, who you will be and more than they ever thought you could be
If you can get through your loss and be alone
But know that they will always be next to you at home

If you can see the world as it is and hope that one day it will be easier
If you can see more than all the ways we hurt, love , hate, strive, the slowly dying
Or the secrets still unwritten even if you never stopped trying
If you can clearly see that it's more than, fear, defeat, the beauty of the changing seasons
And jealous or weakness for all the reasons
If you can take the chances to promise and forgive
The wrongs that no one is paying attention to live
Or the last words of insecure goodbyes, you are not perfect, you are life and human

Can't Stand It?

No I can’t stand it. I can NOT stand being that girl that he just talks to as if she’s just another part of his mind. I can’t stand being so insignificant and tiny. It’s putting my emotions down. I can’t just be friends with this guy. He’s my best friend and nothing more .I can’t seem to tell myself that. He is hopelessly searching for the one girl who can meet certain criteria. Every time he mentions all the things his girlfriend needs to be my heart is screaming “That’s me!!!....but I guess I am too obvious of a choice you can try all the others, get hurt, and then come back ‘round to me.” I can’t stand not being able to be honest with you. I want to stop making up romantic interests for you to believe that I don’t love you. Even though I know that you will always be there for me, it’s not enough. Not enough for my heart to remain stable every time I see you. Do you not get that I need you right now? I understand your current situation: still broken from a love that you wish still existed or was at least reciprocated. I WANT to make you feel better. I KNOW that no one could ever live up to your first love. But I would do my best to keep you happy. I would NEVER break your heart, hurt you, or shy away from you. Knowing you like I do, I admire your strength. “Strength in what” you ask me. Your strength in every situation that life has put you through is commendable. Life has been the biggest bitch to everyone but especially you. But since you don’t know the powers of your strength let me tell you what you have accomplished. You have been loved and used. You have been stabbed in the heart ruthlessly as if with an icicle on a cold winter day. I never knew that I could like someone with this much force behind it. Every time I tell my mind to forget it because you are out of my league, it stubbornly refuses me and says “No I will not rest until he knows how I feel about him.” But it IS supposed to be “Mind over matter” right? Supposing that it IS. What would my next move be? You would tell me to talk to the guy but you wouldn’t know that it was you. So I wouldn’t be able to say “I’m talking to him right now” or else you would figure out and it would be really awkward. SO here is where I try ending this conversation before I slip up and give it away that the person that I strongly like is you. Then we refocus onto your life. And from there it normally drifts over onto your love life. That’s normally where it starts getting really awkward for me to be giving you advice. Because I am basically helping you get with another girl that’s not me. But still even if you don’t love me back as a best friend it’s my duty to help you through life’s worst situations and watch you shine at your best moments. So the last thing to say is:
I Love You

Charles Swindoll

"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude to me is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than success, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, gift, or skill. It will make or break a company...a church...a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past...we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10 percent what happens to me and 90 percent how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our attitudes. "
-Very Wise Kid <3

Forgive and Forget.. :/

Forgive and forget. That's what they say. It's pretty good advice, but it's not practical. When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness old scores never settle. Old wounds never heal, and the most we can hope for is that someday we'll be lucky enough to forget