True statement

A girl whose silent is in more pain than when she's loud.

Dear Blaise,

Dear Blaise,
I miss you. Nothing can bring you back. But the memory of you stays fresh in my mind. You are the best thing that ever happened to me. We all miss you, your family and mine. Blaise, as you were my everything, I realized what you left behind for me. All the smiles, laughter, and joy and not a single tear. You made sure to keep me happy without even knowing when your time would end. We were happy. I love you forever and always,
B

P.S.- I still have that ring pop you proposed to me with when we were 6. It's the oldest memory I have.

How's this for relating to you?

He left you didn't he? After telling you everything that you wanted to hear. He made you feel loved and needed; more than a girl could dream of. You told each other that you loved one another. He texted you first thing in the morning, and last thing at night. He seemed perfect, up until he broke your heart. He started to send you short replies. He seemed perfect, up until he broke your heart. He started to send you short replies. He stopped talking to you in the hallways. You are hoping in your heart that it is just temporary, but if it isn’t, you want him to tell you, so that you can stop wasting your time. You cared about him so much, but he left you waiting, waiting for him to change his mine and go back to you. But he never did. You only realize how much you loved him, when you watch him like someone else. Each night you go to bed and you’re proud of yourself for surviving another day without him. You’re having a hard time. He betrayed you. He broke you. You miss how happy you were with him. When everyone asks you what’s wrong, you tell them it’s nothing, because you know that if you tell them, they will only pretend to understand. No one really will. They will hear your words, but they won’t listen to what you are saying. Just remember that the pain you are feeling is inevitable, but the suffering is optional. It is hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember. But don’t let him bring you down. Don’t give him the joy and the satisfaction. Sometimes bad things happen; you just have to shake it off and get over it. You’ll be okay. He doesn’t really care if you’re miserable, so you might as well be happy. Stay strong and show him that you don’t need him, and that he meant as little to you as you did to him. Good things fall apart so better things can fall together. So keep your head high, your chin up, and keep smiling, because life is a beautiful thing and there is so much more to smile about. <3 

Only Once In Your Life

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."


— Bob Marley

Need For Company

The mutality of our breath could not for an instant kill,
The deep seated differences in us.
That are really just dear marvels beneath the filth of routine.
They no longer feel our dance,
That used to flow so naturally with no tactful diplomacy.
There are no more moments where
They get lost and found in our pivotal surrealism.
Yet we still erect in this crown of naive realism
And we still wonder what makes us go back
Maybe because there's an urgency
A dire need for new company?
No. You walk and talk
And talk and walk
But all you see
Is nothing you would ever
Want to be.
Because all you will ever be,
Will be with me.

We are. We really are.

Were all trapped in a glassed world of peoples expectations,
Peering out of my window with mesmerization.
Written on my face-Your disgrace.
Misplaced the one thing I gave you - My faith.
It doesn't matter how I came here or how I died;
What matters is that I survived-
Day by day, knowing that you lied.

Truly Inspiring

A Strong Feeling

Hovering around my head was a baleful bird

Ate my passion to love

Tearing all of my heart into pieces

Enveloping me in a cape of obscurity


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Utopia, yeh?

Everything is as it’s supposed to be,

In this place with no fears,

No crying, no tears, no more nightmares.

Unicorn feathers on the floor

Bend down and discover more

Lead me down a trail of crumbs;

End up at a house filled with bums.

Let us leave this place.

Gloomy and almost out of sight,

Leaving those people behind.

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Old stuff from the MC days...

I’m never startled never shaken and I always stir up trouble when I go places

I kick up dust when I leave but they’ve always told me to kick rocks

Instead I live like an avalanche of boulders like a tumbling hail storm during the harvest season that causes a shortage of crops

My flow’s nicer than Thor’s golden locks

But I'm just a stringless violin told I'll never be a part of the orchestra

I sometimes question the reason for my existence

I’m reckless but not wreck less

There are many scratches and dents on this automobile of flesh and bones

Nothings worse than feeling like you don’t belong

Like you don’t even got a home, I live on the road, the Road to Zion

I've got a carburetor in my cranium and as long as there’s drive in my chest then Ima ride on

It’s always nighttime but my lights off

I don’t need them to see where I’m going I’m going to where the bright lights are

That’s why I always bleed my heart out onto the paper when I write songs

That’s why I always rhyme on till my saliva’s gone past when my throat’s sore even when the mic's off

But when I lay my head to sleep I dream of seven seven headed beasts seven days a week

My heart pounds like the rumbling of thunder sweat pours off me like rain makes my clothes moist I can’t move as if held by bolts

I’m alone, but I don’t know if it was my choice or yours

I look around it’s a nice day, sunny, shows how dilapidated the buildings are, funny, just like my soul

I feel the fabric of my shirt, its devoid of fluid, huh who knew a stringless violin could make such beautiful music 

Dear Blaise

I miss you. I’ve missed you since the day you left Miami. But now it’s just an empty feeling inside me that makes me die inside. I’m trying to be happy like you told me. There’s just no one like you here. I honestly can’t put in words how much I miss you or anyone else for that matter. Shawn can’t even talk to me because he says it reminds him of you too much. Blaise, there is no one here that I can fully trust like I trusted you. Not one person on this bloody planet knows me like you do. Yeah I know your probably thinking “But Bhavika, I’m dead why are you talking in the present tense”. Because you’re not dead to me baby. Never. I won’t ever forget any of the memories we had. The best one if I had to pick though, would be the time that you told me you loved me. Blaise no guy, let alone friend, had ever said that to me and meant it… It was the precious moment ever…for me at least. The day that you told me you loved me I was literally floating. Nothing could bring me down that day. Nothing at all, it was like someone had just told me I was fucking queen of the world. Nah, that’s an understatement. Know why? Because I was queen of your heart. You said so yourself. You said that I reigned over it with all the power anyone could muster. I miss you. Why did you have to go out that night? Why couldn’t you have just stayed in? I feel so responsible for your death that it’s ridiculous. Shawn blames himself, I blame me, and Holly and Chuck don’t know what’s going on with their family anymore. Was the Christmas gift you were getting for that important? Did you have to go and get it that night? Blaise why MY gift that night? Why MINE? You got killed because of me. Never, for as long as I live will I ever forget that. Nor will I be fully happy unless I’m with you. So here’s to those douche bags that took you away from me. I’ll kill them even if it’s the last thing I ever do, I swear on your grave that they will pay for what they did to you. But no, I won’t become a murderer or do anything too drastic or stupid. I know you would worry. So fine. For you, I won’t. But don’t think that I’m just going to let this slide. I want them to know what its like to have the most important person in your life be taken away. I want them to just hear the news “Oh yeah, by the way Blaise was murdered today”. I want them to be that devastated. I HATE this stupid as fuck act that I’m putting on acting all smiley and happy. It’s FUCKING BULLSHIT. There’s one person that sees through me like glass though, Jose. Remember him? We met him together when he was having dinner at Chuck’s house. Ha-ha he told us we made a cute couple and we denied even having feelings for each other. Sorry Hun, I didn’t know it then. As they say” You don’t know what you’ve got until you lost it.” I had love. And then I lost you.