To Make or Not to Make?

Okay, so, sometimes, even the best of us make rash decisions, bad decisions, decisions we pretty much know we're regret the moment, the minute....especially the morning after. I mean, maybe not regret.... regret, because at least we put ourselves out there. But still, something inside of us decides to do a crazy thing, a thing we know that will probably bite us in the ass, but we do it anyway. What I am saying is, we reap what we sew. What comes around goes around. Like I was saying... payback is a bitch.

Intriguing Question (:

If death meant just leaving the stage long enough to change costume and come back as a new character... Would you slow down? Or speed up? .......

Through Shattered Eyes...

I hear the silence, I taste the years
The echoes of guilt will haunt my years
The empty nothing, I know the pain
As it fills my soul I feel the shame.

I see my clothes fall to the floor
His breath on my face as he locks the door
I feel his touch upon my naked skin
Trying to push him away, but he enters in

I see the world through different eyes
As he lays there a part of me dies.
And I feel his touch upon me again
Though I ask him to stop he takes me again

I hear him shower in the next room
Happily singing his favourite tune.
While I lay on my bed in a tattered mess
My innocence lost I feel the abyss.

I see him smile and give me a kiss
As he says he remembers it was as good as this.
I see his clothes with mine on the floor
As I feel his touch on me once more.

I taste the tears of my shattered pain
As he raped me over and over again,
I hear him profess his love for me
As I cringe at the feel of his touch on me.

I Feel him lay there by my side
His hands on me and my pain inside,
The tears I cry reflect my shame
As I realize things won't be the same.

I tell a friend I see him stare
His disbelief cannot compare
To the violation of my trust
The night my family member took me in lust.

I hear the truth twisted into lies
My secret shame before my eyes
Of all those who were my supposed friends
Their compassion was only just pretend.

I will not ever be the same
As i see him walk beyond my pain,
He was not punished I let him go
The shame he gave me he'll never know.....

My Best Friend....

Today I found a friend,
Who knew everything I felt.
He knew my every weakness,
And the problems I've been dealt.
He understood my wonders,
And listened to my dreams.
He listened to how I felt about life and love,
And knew what it all means.

Not once did he interrupt me,
Or tell me I was wrong.
He understood what I was going through,
And promised he'd stay long,
I reached out to this friend
To show him that i care
To pull him close and let him know
How much I need him there
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One girl.....

One girl looking out her window
One boy walking down the street
He didn't know it at the time
But when she saw him her heart skipped a beat.

One girl playing outside
One boy doing the same
He didn't know it at the time
But she wanted to find out his name.

One girl getting hurt by many boys
One boy mending her heart
He didn't know it at the time
But she loved only him from the start.

One girl standing outside
One boy asking her out
He didn't know it at the time
But she never had any doubts.

One girl loving a boy
One boy loving a girl
He didn't know it at the time
But he was her world.

One girl's heart breaks
One boy moves on
He didn't know it at the time
But her love for him wasn't done.

One girl tries to win him back
One boy doesn't care
He didn't know it at the time
But she wouldn't always be there.

One girl leaves for college
One boy stays where he's at
He didn't know it at the time
But her heart was breaking in half.

One girl's heart is missing
One boy has it you see
He doesn't know it right now
But the two of them are meant to be.....
-KattyBoo