Through Shattered Eyes...

I hear the silence, I taste the years
The echoes of guilt will haunt my years
The empty nothing, I know the pain
As it fills my soul I feel the shame.

I see my clothes fall to the floor
His breath on my face as he locks the door
I feel his touch upon my naked skin
Trying to push him away, but he enters in

I see the world through different eyes
As he lays there a part of me dies.
And I feel his touch upon me again
Though I ask him to stop he takes me again

I hear him shower in the next room
Happily singing his favourite tune.
While I lay on my bed in a tattered mess
My innocence lost I feel the abyss.

I see him smile and give me a kiss
As he says he remembers it was as good as this.
I see his clothes with mine on the floor
As I feel his touch on me once more.

I taste the tears of my shattered pain
As he raped me over and over again,
I hear him profess his love for me
As I cringe at the feel of his touch on me.

I Feel him lay there by my side
His hands on me and my pain inside,
The tears I cry reflect my shame
As I realize things won't be the same.

I tell a friend I see him stare
His disbelief cannot compare
To the violation of my trust
The night my family member took me in lust.

I hear the truth twisted into lies
My secret shame before my eyes
Of all those who were my supposed friends
Their compassion was only just pretend.

I will not ever be the same
As i see him walk beyond my pain,
He was not punished I let him go
The shame he gave me he'll never know.....